Tensing muscles

We’ve just installed a traction bar in the kitchen doorway, in the hope of getting fit… Ha ha… But no, seriously, I’ve given myself a goal. Every day, I hoist myself up to my chin, and hold on in that position for as long as I can. I started with a count of 5 seconds, and I try to increase it every day. Yesterday, I was up to 25. Yeah…

Towards the end of the count, I really feel the ab muscles contracting, which is a good thing, obviously. But the interesting thing is that the longer they contract, the funnier it feels inside the vagina. I would guess that this tensing of the abs raises the pelvic floor, and allows for the stretching/relaxing of the vagina muscles? Actually, I don’t know. But the feeling is definitely there.

I discovered it when I was ten and climbing water slides up the wrong way. The abs would contract, and the feeling would return. It’s indescribable and not altogether pleasant (but nor is it unpleasant…), but it does have the advantage and raising the awareness of body parts that are too often forgotten in the daily rush of life.

Oh, by the way: this NEVER happens when doing crunches. I think gravity needs to be involved and pulling somehow on the legs…

OK, think I’ll go exercise, now

Relaxing muscles

I just noticed something. As we all know, in times of stress, the ass tightens and contracts. Under regular stress, this becomes a permanent condition, and it requires a conscious effort to relax it. However, done regularly, it does wonder. But guess what? The vagina can do the same thing! Yep, you can actually tense up all the way into your vagina, and not relax it on a daily basis…

So now the conscious effort to relax the ass muscles must be extended to the vagina as well.

The benefits? Stress release, obviously, but also, more readiness to sex. Why? Because, feeling relaxed down there, makes you aware of your sexual organs, and more in tune with desire and wanting sex.

So, I will try hard to be be aware of tensions and to regularly order my muscles to relax. Pretty cool, actually.

Thinking ’bout…

Looking hard for meaning in my life right now. No, that’s not quite it. Looking hard for meaningful work, that is, work that has meaning to me. I need to get out of the urgency of handling the basics, so I can go back to having some fun and self-expressing. Perhaps I also need to give myself permission to leave the emergency world and move into abundance…

Which may not look like it ties into sex, but it does… ‘Cause it fills up too much thinking space. Grrrr… OK, need to go back to the sensual woman. Enter into a new dimension… a dimension of feels, a dimension of smells, a dimension of touch, of dreams, of images…

Images are the basic way I use to get turned on. I either find images that turn me on, or dream them up. The harder the better. Thinking of having a vagina filled with an inflatable toy is a turn-on. And yes, I’ve tried it. It shouldn’t to be pumped out to its max capacity, so that wearability can last for several, long, delicious minutes… The fullness is amazing. Other cool stuff include sticking toys in and out, balls, bells, …

And here’s an image I particularly enjoy : the woman candelabra. Position said woman properly, stick a candle up her ass or elsewhere (position is key here), and light up. There you have her… all useful and ready to serve… Haven’t tried that one yet, so don’t know if it’d be as cool in real life as it is in my fantasies…

on being earnest

I’ve always loved the name of this play “The importance of being earnest”, which in French translates as “L’importance d’être constant”. I’ve yet to figure out what earnest really means, but the French meaning implies some sort of regularity… which I certainly can’t claim for myself.

But hey, as someone on the Internet once said, the answer to the question “what happened ?” can be said to be Life. Although that’s probably incomplete. I just let daily worries overtake me…

Regardless… I took time today to pleasure myself. Did a quick Google image search on anime hentai, but that was to tame, so I asked for the same + tentacles, and got some good shots that got me going quickly. I love the idea of being helpless and taken by every orifice, in sort of a cool mixture between restraint, sensuous caresses and penetration. I also tried to find some more hardcore anime, but my PC was too slow to sort though the good stuff quickly. I took that as an indication that it was time to reinstall windows. After all, that’s also taking care of myself, seeing that I’m a geek that’s thoroughly addicted to her machine.

Oh, and if you’re curious… I was looking for stuff with objects. That is, poor helpless females having laboratory instruments holding the pussy well opened, or perhaps tormenting the breasts… I like the idea of metal objects, anonymous, with no feelings, juxtaposed to my soft, organic body… oooohhh…

More later !

blogging for love and desire

OK, here’s the deal : my life is so busy, and the funds are so low, I just spend too much time worrying instead of enjoying life. So this blog is there to remind me that sex is a part of life. And good sex makes for a good life.

On top of that, I’ve moved into a thrilling phase of my relationship, the exploration of the SM relationship. My key worry : not being taken care of. Ever since I’ve phrased it, my sweet has provided that as well. So I should’ve explained it better from the start. And trusted in the results. `

I should say that I’m not big on trust. I, of course, have my reasons. But reasons are not gonna help me trust any better. So forget the reasons, and trust the one who loves you. Gotta fight with myself on this one, because the hidden me feels like it’s gotta protect me like a tiger… gotta tell the hidden me that I can handle things, now.

So now, I gotta give myself permission to feel desire and go for sex whenever I want, as it’s always available (pretty much) from my sweet.  Funny, but just giving myself formal permission is already freeing up things. So  I think I’ll start each post with this sentence : “I give myself permission to feel desire and go for sex whenever I want!”

Now, to go on from there, I think I’ll put in each post something that turns me on, now that I’ve  figured out the key to unlock access.